I’ve come to find that over the years, I’ve been oblivious to some things, especially men. It’s understandable as I grew up as a tomboy. I didn’t fret about my appearance except in making sure I had good hygiene and my clothes were washed.
In fact, after college, I was a bit confused about guys… and girls and why they were acting and saying things I simply had never heard before. In fact, I was kind of ticked off sometimes… and I had gone through 2 attempted rapes where I ended up beating the guy back. It wasn’t until my early twenties I finally was sat down by a friend and told that I needed to realize that I was gorgeous and these looks, words and actions people were doing were due to that.
I wasn’t fishing for compliments and I knew I wasn’t ugly or there wouldn’t been a lot of small children running from me. In fact, I am more to look for a compliment about my work rather than ask about myself. I was successful in what I set my sights on and learned to be confident without resting on looks.
Nothing Wrong With Being Nude
Poem written by Nile Flores in 2001
If I just stand here in the sunlight
and let the rays accentuate my curves,
– would you be turned on
– or would you see art just the way nature has made them?
In the shadows that I made
as my skin warms in the sun,
– there is perfection here,
but ONLY here.
If you think below the belt,
then this is nothing
– my naked body just a toy,
Please look at me without lust
and then I know you respect me
– knowing that this is just body
and that it doesn’t need to look wanton for you.
I see you only as a person
– not just for sexual pleasures.
I’m only curious of your thoughts
– hoping that you see me.
Just another of God’s creations
who appreciates the bare essentials
– because there’s nothing wrong in being nude.